Then and now…

I mentioned in my first blog that spent a lot of my time in baggy clothing as from my early teenage years to my early twenties I was on the larger size. For my height at 5’4″ and 10 and a half stone I was classed as overweight on a standard BMI chart. I carried a lot of weight on my thighs, stomach and arms and I was always conscious to buy clothes that covered these areas as much as possible. I never went to the gym to try and shift the weight and so I carried on being unhappy with my body. 

The next two pictures were taken at my highest weight of 10 stone 7lbs. You can’t really tell (as my clothes are hiding my body) but you can see from my face how bloated I look. The white dress below now hangs off me, and the red dress in the bottom picture is now loose on the back.

   

The next picture was taken in the middle of 2013 when I trimmed down to my lowest weight of 8 stone 5lbs through running and watching what I ate. This photo motivates me now to get back in shape and really tone up. I would ideally like defined abs, but that will come in time through training and eating healthily. I still had a little bit of a tummy but my hips were slimming out and my body was definitely changing. 

  

After another week of Protein World and exercising at home I will upload a current progress shot. I can see my body changing a lot but I want to post it when I am extremely satisfied with my figure.  

No gym…no worries! 

I have only ever been to the gym twice in my life. Both times I was a guinea pig for somebody who was training to be a personal trainer. I don’t mind gyms, and eventually I will start going to one. I just prefer to do exercises at home, because 1. it’s in the privacy of my own home and 2. It’s free! 

Tonight I have just been researching lots of different mini and effective exercises I can do at home. I want them to mainly target my stomach area and thighs. Finding exercises that target these areas will hopefully help speed up my desired physique. 

  

Protein world love…

  

A week ago today I started Protein World’s Slender Blend program. This whole new way of approaching nutrition and food was something completely new to me up until the middle of last year, when I started to really focus on feeding my body to fuel my running.

   

I had been following Protein World on Twitter for some time and my sister in law had given it good reviews so I purchased my own little yellow box of goodies. 

So after a week I have managed to have 2 protein shakes a day, one for my breakfast and one for my lunch. Then for my tea I have a roughly 500 calorie dinner, usually fish or chicken.

  
If I am at home I have a protein rich snack of maybe a couple of hard boiled eggs, or carrots and houmous. You can have green tea for your mid-morning snack but I’m not a massive fan of it. 

  
I have really enjoyed eating healthy and nutritious food and I have a constant supply of energy and motivation, which helps me at work. 

  

After a week I have lost roughly 5lbs and I am fast reaching my goal weight of 8 stone 5lbs…💪🏻

   
 

Currently reading…

  

Up until a few weeks ago I was completely hooked on sugar, and from one source in particular…fizzy drinks. For past few years I have drunk Cola or Pepsi everyday. As soon as I woke up (or for my breakfast at work) then one mid morning, dinner, afternoon and evening etc. 

One day I decided enough was enough. After what seemed a life time of bloating, tiredness and anxiety I went just about cold turkey on the fizzy drinks front. I had a constant caffeine withdrawal headache for about 4 days, but I somehow managed to refrain from grabbing one to perk me up at work on a morning and opted for flavoured waters instead (some flavoured waters contain a shocking amount of sugar so always read the labels).

I now feel as though a massive weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I no longer live my days wondering when my next sugar hit is coming and I opt for natural sugar sources like fruits which keep hungar at bay. 

I bought this book really as a source of information for healthy dinner and snack ideas, but it also has a great sections on busting your sugar belly and a great at home yoga sequence. 

My story…

First of all welcome to my page!

I have wrote several blogs over the years…mainly related to travel or food (two massive passions of mine) but up until recently I have really wanted to write about my fitness journey and my relationship with food. Throughout my teenage years and early 20’s I was quite…how can I describe it…cuddly. I was a size 14 on my bottom half and believe it or not, I was so self conscious about my thighs I stopped wearing jeans for nearly 4 years. I have always carried excess weight on my hips and my stomach, but I tried not to let it bother me. I look at photos now and apart from thinking ‘what the hell am I wearing?’ I also see what I didn’t hide very well. My clothes were always baggy and usually plain but I felt it wouldn’t draw attention to me and people wouldn’t notice.

When I moved in with my ex I felt some kind of need to change. I had already lost quite a bit of weight due to personal circumstances, but I felt this would be a good place to start from. I started running…a lot! I would run 2-3 times a week for roughly a mile and a half at a time. And after no time I began to look lean and fit. I felt fantastic. After a few weeks my purpose for wanting to lose weight was changing. My ex began to make me feel extremely self conscious. He would look at photos online of half naked women on a social media website, and I began to feel inadequate and not as good as them. So I was determine to get really fit so I would be the only one he would look at.  I suppose most women feel this way in their relationships, but without going in to too much detail it was the timing of when he would look and his pitiful excuses…

As I slimmed down to my lowest weight of 8 stone 5lbs he told me I was looking anorexic, and outwardly told me I had no breasts and he didn’t find me attractive. Scared of him leaving me I would stuff my face with sweet sugar infested desserts on my lunches at work, hoping desperately to put weight back on.

After several heart to hearts I found the courage to leave. I realised way before I left that I no longer loved him and his toxic mind control games. I knew it was the right decision because I couldn’t give a s**t and (it may sound strange) I ate very well over the next few weeks. I felt free! I went to some gym sessions with my dad’s partner who was a personal trainer and I wasn’t afraid to make something of myself.

I met Dan at work at my lowest weight but to him it doesn’t matter what I weigh. Which is just as well because after several months of eating out in restaurants and snacking…I no longer weighed 8 stone 5lbs. But to be fair we have both loved and not regretted anything. We spent a few nights in the Lakes and feasted on seafood pasta and steak with several glasses of wine every night. But until very recently we have both decided we want to change the way we eat and the way we look.

This blog is really a documentation of my journey to be fitter in 2015…and beyond…